Entries for December, 2005
| December 4, 2005 |
 deathcabforcutie |
there must be a cramming demon inside me
exorcist exorcist. gah.. i need one! it's 10:30 and i have at best gotten myself to remember that we had a project in journ - due in two days. two days dammit!
i was in xavier for most of the day. marcel had a soccer festival of some sort, and the sectoral assembly for LNP was conveniently situated there as well. but darn, THEY WERE HOLDING A BAZAAR. get ready guys, here comes the cavalry. anyway, i ended up killing my mom's wallet - it bled to death. which is a relief, of course, coz the money wasn't mine. muhaha.
during mass my mind drifted off to some fantasmagorical place (i learned that in english!
). which is bad so i plead autonomous to inspiring unwanted influence to anyone reading this. well right then and there i decided that my mind wasn't such a safe place to be. sometimes, i feel that one-on-one's with my thoughts tend to unearth abstractions which scare me quite. sentiments bubble up, the kinds i want to keep hidden. or maybe it just gets tiring to think. haven't you felt at times that quiet moments alone turn out more restless than friday nights with friends and a bottle of bailey's? at least, they do for me.
but i'll never know, right? maybe the reason i've found thinking wearisome is the fact that i haven't done it enough. i think i can squeeze that in my busy schedule. 
it's 11. countdown to midnight, guys. so many people are still up. those using messenger, at least. from the looks of it, i'll be seeing a lot of eyebags through my own tomorrow. huh.
i knew it! the st. paul sisters were filthy rich!
currently listening to ave maria - mozart
currently reading a cheesy, 90's thriller. what can i say
currently feeling bulletproof
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 08:22 AM |
| December 5, 2005 |
 deathcabforcutie |
easier said than done.
if someone really loves you, it is in complete surrender. there is no confusion, no holding back. it is without hesitation, and there are no "others". just "you", and "me". there is no denial, they must be sure of what they feel, and most importantly, accepted it. love is jealous, but only to a certain extent, for only a robot can love without expecting anything in return. we are humans, you see. humans crave mutual respect. but true love overlooks oneself, and ultimately wishes only happiness to the one who is loved, even if it means the lover is out of the picture.
currently listening to winter wonderland - faith hill
currently reading the midnight club hahaha
currently feeling festive
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 06:59 AM |
| December 6, 2005 |
 deathcabforcutie |
this song turns me to mush. eck
More Than Anyone by Gavin deGraw
You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to love you more than anyone
currently reading exam sched
currently feeling aww
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 05:57 AM |
| December 6, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
something i find mildly amusing
i never eat anything alone. i'd rather go hungry than consume some P15-worth stuffed bread without a side order of salsa. that's either the wonder of my being, or just me being fussy.
SAWANG SAWA NA AKO SA KINAKAIN KO! nasusuka ako. 
currently listening to half-life - oliver james the hottie
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 07:21 AM |
| December 7, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
yeah, seth cohen? distant cousin
where is the green light, the freshmen ask. could be in me cause i'm the little, green-eyed monster.
mhmm.
nevermind that. what i'm saying is i'm covetous to hazardous extremes. remember alexandra from "josie and the pussycats"? yeah well the writers pretty much duplicated my pretty personality and pasted it on her. if anything, i plain suck at selflessness.
what's worse is i bring my possessiveness out onto the open. through indirect methods, of course, though vulgar enough for others to notice. that's the thing i supremely detest about my foul nature. selosa na nga, ksp pa.
i guess this all branches out from my excessive perfectionism. there's hardly any detail that goes unnoticed by me. if getting something done my way proves out of reach from my abilities, all hell breaks loose.
it's also weird that i am only too aware of these wonderful flaws of mine, and still nothing comes out of this awareness.
what can i say? i'm stubborn.
"I've spent most of my life walking under that hovering cloud, jealousy, whose acid raindrops blurred my vision and burned holes in my heart."
~ Astrid Alauda
currently listening to my paper heart - all-american rejects
currently reading asian history pointers
currently watching scripted daw yung hello garci
currently feeling recumbent
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 07:23 AM |
| December 16, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
THANK YOU
napanood niyo yung last episode ng kampanerang kuba?
nasusuka na ako. 
nagising ako ng 7 kanina after ko makatulog ng 2 am dhl dumating na yung most awaited canadian cousins ko!! the good part is our ref is bloated with sausage, salami, smokies, and other meaty delights. wuhu. 
nakakatuwa sila manamit parang homies from downtown. haha. cutie! haha. last time ko sila nkta ay nung pmunta kaming canada ourselves, kme ng family ko.
in other news, the exams are over. finally. the tests i expected to split my head into two apparently were the easiest ones of all. i must've underestimated the others. and my biological clock is wasted. i sleep during the afternoons and eat dinner at 10 and, during the exams, did my studying from 9 to 2:30 am. haha whoa.
currently listening to donnie darko ft. gary jules - mad world
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 08:07 AM |
| December 17, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
only you can make this world seem right. HAHA
today gave me an idea of how the fishes lived within the confines of our little tub in the backyard. except in my case i do what i do within the confines of our little house in... quezon city. like i said, my cousins just arrived here for the holidays. and when i say cousins, i mean cousins who share the same passion as my brother for online gaming communities and ps2 fanaticisms. and yeah, they're boys. they're all boys.
that was yesterday. i wrote that part last night but then marcel wanted to play runescape.
today we went to mass at the jesu church in ateneo and continued on to my lolo's house in kamias. my relatives are all wacks. on both sides.
after that we stopped by tiendesitas. and that is an understatement. we raided tiendesitas. at least, my tita, mom, and i did. what can i say? we're family. 9 of us rode on the calesa later on, poor horse. jed and mig-e say "calesa" funny, too. parang, kaleysa. nyehe.
currently listening to i wanna grow old with you - adam sandler
currently reading 7-step solution guide to the rubik's cube
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 06:43 AM |
| December 20, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
under the tracks
today marks my 1st year and 19th day of blogging in tabulas. yay 
currently listening to all kinds of time - fountains of wayne
currently reading the invisible man - h.g. wells. again.
currently feeling hah. :(
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 02:59 AM |
| December 21, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
crud
what happens to someone whose means of communication through cell phone use has been cut off?
my charger has mysteriously disappeared and the mountains of luggage around the house cease to aid me in my quest to find it. my phone's about as useful as an appendix right now. vile, vile, battery. my forehead will resemble china and i'll be blind as a bat by the end of the break.
| You Are Comet |
 A total daredevil, you're the reindeer with an edge! Why You're Naughty: You almost gave Santa a heart attack when you took him sky diving Why You're Nice: You always make sure the sleigh is going warp speed |
| How You Are In Love |
 You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance. |
| You Have a Melancholic Temperament |
 Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. |
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them. |
| You Are Somewhat Machiavellian |
 You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to! |
| On Average, You Would Sell Out For |
 $1,111,417 |
| Your Porn Star Name Is... |
 Jenny Jiggles |
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 3% Pure |
 For you, it's all kiss and no talk.You're in a permanent lip lock. |
haha. just kidding. 
i think i got a little... carried away. but wait! my personal favorite:
| In a Past Life... |
 You Were: A Ditsy Dancer. Where You Lived: Egypt. How You Died: Suicide. |
currently listening to smells like teen spirit - nirvana
currently watching fairly odd parents
currently feeling CHARGER!!!!
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 02:31 AM |
| December 22, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
wow
currently listening to come what may - ewan mcgregor & nicole kidman
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 07:51 AM |
| December 23, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
i'm wearing red, white, and green tomorrow :-D
this is a favorite post.
kanta tayo, kanta!! ito, the ultimate Christmas rimeks. hmhm. syempre sa panahong buhay na buhay ang bayan sa mga nang-uuso dito at doon ay kailangang may handa parati. the challenge is... to keep up! halimbawa, bawal kantahin ang silver bells sa tono ng jingle bells. okay? sige. ang nakatapos ay may premyo!
The Ultimate Christmas Remix
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow
On a one-horse open sleigh,
Over the fields we go,
Laughing all the way;
Bells on bob-tail ring,
making spirits bright,
What fun it is to ride and sing
A sleighing song tonight. Oh
Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells swing and jingle bells ring
Snowing and blowing up bushels of fun
Now the jingle hop has begun
Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells chime in jingle bell time
Dancing and prancing in Jingle Bell Square
In the frosty the snowman was a jolly happy soul,
With a corncob pipe and a button nose
and two eyes made out of coal.
Frosty the snowman is a fairy tale, they say,
He was made of snow but the children
know how he came to life one day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
A partridge in a pear tree.
On the second day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
Two turtle doves
And a Partridge in a pear tree.
O Christmas Tree,
How steadfast are
your branches!
Your boughs are green
in summer's clime
And through the snow is glistening
A beautiful sight,
we're happy tonight,
walking in a winter wonderland.
Gone away is the bluebird,
here to stay is a new bird
He sings a love song,
as we go along,
walking in a winter wonderland... of snow.
Giddy yap, giddy yap, giddy yap,
it's grand, Just holding your hand,
We're gliding along with a song
of a wintry fairy land.
Our cheeks are nice and rosy
and comfy cozy are we
We're snuggled up together
like two birds of a feather would be
Let's take that road before us
and sing a chorus or two
Come on, it's lovely weather
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
Deck the halls with boughs of holly
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
'Tis the season to be jolly old Saint Nicholas,
lean your ear this way!
Don't you tell a single soul
what I'm going to say:
Christmas Eve is coming soon;
now, you dear old man
Whisper what you'll bring to me;
tell me if you a merry Christmas
We wish you a merry Christmas
We wish you a merry Christmas
And a happy New Year.
Glad tidings we bring
To you and your kin;
Glad tidings for Christmas
And a happy New Year!
hint: michael buble will do you wonders in this department.
currently listening to the ultimate christmas remix
currently watching my cousins playing smackdown vs. raw on ps2
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 09:07 AM |
| December 24, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone.
...now back to opening gifts. haha.
don't forget that this is the time for your family to be together, and especially the time for the world to rejoice the Savior's coming into existence. CHERISH IT. 
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 10:10 PM |
| December 28, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
:)
"You deserve a Dannie today."
http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
currently listening to Let Me Fall - Bethany Joy Lenz
currently reading Alicia Keys interview on RD Asia
currently feeling sigh.
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 07:22 AM |
| December 29, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
my 100th entry
I was in Kamias last night, all of us except for dad. I watched King Kong while the rest of them practiced their stints for tomorrow's Big Party, with tito and tita watching from behind while having their massages. Poor Kong. Come on, I mean all he wanted was to do was be with Ann in that little piece of island that he was used to and next thing he knew he was swiping away at some biplanes like house flies. House flies that shoot bullets.
Was I the only one who noticed the ape bones in the bat cave? Possibly not. Kong probably wasn't the only one of his kind long before Carl and his mischief set foot on the shores of Skull Island. Could Kong have taken all those human sacrifices because he was in remorse for his species? Did he fight for Ann til his fate bacause he was lonely?
Could I be an animal behaviorist when I grow up?
Anyway, I'm wearing my toe shoes as I type because I need to make up a dance by 7 tonight. cramming again ha.
I missed Jenny's farewell party yesterday. Shoot. Now I'll never see before she leaves on the 30th. So I sulked my way around the house last night thinking of how easy it was to be Jenny's friend. She was never the type to be prejudiced and she remained true to her self no matter what place you were on the social ladder.
Haha. The way I sound, Jenny's as far as dead. But no, don't be mistaken.
We'll miss you Jenny! I'm sorry I missed your party. Take care of yourself, and we send you our prayers. Iingatan namin si ***. Haha. I LOVE YOU, DEAR. <3
currently listening to Akin Ka Nalang - Itchyworms
currently feeling drained
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 12:27 AM |
| December 31, 2005 |
deathcabforcutie |
nahihilo ako
this is a favorite post.
I had my chucks laundered today, cause guess what - Nanindahan kami kahapon!
Saan pa kundi sa 168!! Home of Dona the Explorer and the Powerpuff Geng-ru complete with green skin and discolored eyes. Going there on foot was like having Chinatown alive with hiccups because of the multitude of children throwing spitting firecrackers on the streets. Alam niyo yung sabay-sabay na pagsinghot sa t'wing kinakanta ang Lupang Hinirang? Ganun din kahapon subalit ito'y dahil nagugulantang kami sa dami ng nagpapaputok.
Despite the strewn filth and rancid odors emanating from car exhausts and the canal nearby, you get to appreciate how easy it is to get designer bags at a third of the price you would usually get them at shopping malls. Of course, they're fake, but who would know? Right, right? haha.
The other night (29th), we went ballroom dancing!
Masaya maki-boogie sa mga bakling, in fairness.
Pag-uwi namin, walang cable. So may isinaksak ako sa extension at pumutok yung amplifier na nag-didistribute ng internet at cable sa mga computers at TV sa bahay. Oops.
Dad: Oh, ****. Dan! did you plug this?
Dan: (nasa shower) Uhh, plug what?
Dad: The plug near the TV! The one with the white -
Dan: I didn't plug that.
Dad: Ahh, shoot. *curse curse*
later..
Mom: How much did you buy that?
Dad: 4000 pesos.
gulp.
Mom: Hay nako.. Yung mga discounts na nakukuha natin napupunta lang sa payments na di dapat.
Dad: Oo nga.
Strike 1. 
Mom: Dapat kunin na natin yan sa account ng anak mo eh! That boy has to learn not to keep plugging and plugging things.
Strike 2. 
Dad: HAAHH. Wala nang internet.
Mom: (Bubuksan sana ang TV) Hala, wala palang TV ngayon.
Strike 3. 
Tulog na si Mommy at si Daddy ay uminom ng tubig sa ref sa hall.
Dan: (pagpasok ni Daddy) Dad..
Dad: Oh?
Dan: Akoyungnagplug.
Dad: Huh?
Dan: Ako yung nag-plug ng amplifier. *braces herself for the worst*
Dad: (Masamang tingin na pa-joke) Tsk. You did it?
Dan: Sorry..
Dad: Napagalitan tuloy yung kapatid mo.
Dan: Eh, kasi akala ko kanina tinutukoy mo yung...
Dad: Mm sige never mind. What's done is done.
Humiga na si Dad. Pagkatapos ng ilang sandali -
Dad: Dan.
Dan: Oh?
Dad: Thanks for telling the truth.
Teka. Naiyak ako dun.
Anyway, the moral of the story is, if you want to save yourself from long, excruciating moments debating on whether to come clean or not, just tell the truth.
But if you'd rather not,
God knows a million ways to make you squirm.
currently listening to Move on - Jet
currently feeling mass in 48!!
| deathcabforcutie roadkilled at 02:13 AM |